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Thursday, November 23, 2006

Monday, October 16, 2006

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

8:07PM

So I know all of you are dying for an entry lol. but im keeping it simple. last nite i started yoga class with my mom and it was amazing!!! it's just all this stretching but the weirdest thing is that you actually sweat! odddd..but it was sooo relaxing, so now it's my new monday night activity you should all try it! My bday was great! Jordie actually came out to a club and danced hehe and it was awesome yay!!! i was nicely toasted as u can all c from my pics. good times and i was glad everyone showed up. except some were missing in action :( and thank u sooooooooooooooo much tam tam for ur mug. tam made me this purple mug that says HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY LISA on it, its sooo pretty :)hmmm what else, school is good i loove all my classes and i loove having thursdays and fridays off its great. american eagle is ok they changed all the managers and i hate one of them so thats a bit annoying, but im going to work at Medisys some more during the year to make more $$$. i also will be doing research with one of my professors this yr so thats exciting. Blaze had surgery yesterday to remove that bump on his leg :( it was sooo gross all bloody, but at least its gone and the vet called today and said the biopsy revealed that its benign thank god! but he was soo drugged up yesterday i felt soo bad for him.
im soo tired now so i cant think straight...
oo one more thing, the magazine im in comes out october 15th so watch out :P
more updates sooon....love and miss u all :)

Current mood: content

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Monday, September 4, 2006

8:11PM

I MISS U ALLL PLEASE COME HOME!!!

Current mood: sad

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Friday, August 25, 2006

10:08PM

Okay so tonight was hard, really hard, hard than expected
i saw them for the first time in weeks without her by their side
i could see it in their eyes she was missed, she was gone
the dynamic so different but comfortable as if we were awaiting her arrival
but she never physcially came, but as we sat around the table her warmth was present, i knew she was there with us, listening, laughing, eating and sharing just like it always has been.
but still, it felt empty, cold and a bit akward to not see her there attempting to eat, cracking a smile, or yelling at her kids for eating too quickly...just her appearance in that corner whether she be smiling or frowning was always wonderful and now no more. when i see your kids, i see u, i feel u, i miss u and i cannot even attempt to bear their sorrow and pain
losing a mother i cannot ever imagine
losing a sister i cannot ever imagine
but losing an aunt i dont imagine
i thought seeing them would b comforting but instead i felt like crying right when i saw them

Current mood: gloomy

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Monday, August 14, 2006

11:20PM - lost

So why am i not surprised tht this weekend was horrible?? Am i supposed to think the entire year will be like this? I hope all my friends make the effort to come for my birthday bc i cant handle these disappointments anymore. But i found this song that describes exactly how im feeling right now. confused, upset, lost... i heard it at AE and im in love with it. the lyrics r great, describe exactly how i feel. but the real effect comes from the music so download it if u are curious to know how im feeling.
i miss my aunt so much and im getting weaker, i feel destroyed, betrayed, and i am dreading the year to come without her...i feel like now my mind is less consumed and cloudy..the summer is drifting by and the clarity brings a whole new wave of confusion, a cloud hovering over me, filled with horror of life and what it brings...realizations i havent had the time to fathom. y is she gone? y now? y am i hurt? y is everyone hurt? y is it that i cant drive by her house, i cant visit her grave, y cant i be as strong as she was when she was battling this relentless disease, her vigor her persistence her energy her drive she was in so much pain everyday and you would never know bc she wouldnt let anyone know. i need that, i need her, although she is with me she isnt at the same time. i need support here, im lacking it and bc of it im drowning in myself. i need that shoulder to cry on that hasnt been there. y cant i get that??? am i just that type of person that everyone believes a smile can cure all...just bc i smile doesnt mean that im not gasping for every breath inside. talk to me, ask me how i am bc i cant always be there for everyone and not get anything in return, bc that giving and no receiving is what hurts the most. i need help i need you all to be here for me bc im losing myself within myself.

i need a middle ground, i need peace
i need some help from u
healing is an ongoing process that hurts to be done alone


Calm down
And get straight
It's not our eyes (?)
It's how we operate

You're true
You are
I'd apologize but it won't go very far

Please come here
Come right on over
And when we collide we'll see what gets left over

A little joy
A little sorrow
And a little pride so we won't have to borrow
Wherever you lead, I'll follow

Turn me inside out and upside down
And try to see things my way
Turn a new page, tear the old one out
And I'll try to see things your way

Please come here
Please come on over
There is no line that you can't step right over
Without you well I'm left hollow
So can we decide to try a little joy tomorrow
'Cos baby tonight I'll follow

Turn me inside out and upside down
And try to see things my way
Turn a new page, tear the old one out
And I'll try to see things your way

The way that we've been speaking now
I swear that we'd be friends, I swear
'Cos all these little deals go down with
Little consequences, we share, we share

Turn me inside out and upside down
And try to see things my way
Turn a new page, tear the old one out
And I'll try to see things your way

And I'm gonna love you anyway
Try to see things your way
Try to see things your way
Try to see things your way

Sometimes i picture her there so sedentary so at peace, no more pain im glad im happy you are in a better place i just miss u its undescribable.

Current mood: indescribable

Current music: How We Operate-Gomez

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

4:51PM

Okay, so i dont speak to him in like a month, i havent seen him in 2 months. he claims he broke his cell and lost all the numbers in it when it was repaired..fine, but then y not make an effort to get my phone number?? especially when in ur town! fuck boys! i told u having 6 makes life so difficult lol. and now when im going to his city he's not even going to be there for the weekend. figures! so i guess i won't be seeing him anytime soon, same old crap boys never changes, yes he is a boy to met bc his immaturity is overwhelming.

Current mood: pissed off

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Saturday, June 3, 2006

Sunday, May 7, 2006

5:02PM - I Miss U

I miss my aunt so much i cant even begin to explain. I cried myself to sleep Friday night b/c i was just so upset. Part of me feels that i will never get over this and never be able to walk into her house again. Ive been having lots of dreams about her. I just want to call her, see her..give her a kiss. This week has been really hard and i know its just goin to get harder. How can she actually be dead. Dead! a word i would never think i would have to use, especially with her. I feel like im slipping again. not eating, not sleeping, just not caring. i love my friends, the ones who have been there for me, calling me, letting me cry to them for hours..u know who u are and u know that i love and appreciate everything you have done for me. but its just hard. ill need some help. ill need some time. i have no more tears left. she is gone and im never goin to accept that. everytime i c something of hers, a pic, or anything that reminds me of her i cry. its been so tough. and this is the first time that i feel i can actually write about it in lj. life sucks. life is unfair. she was so young. she was an amazing mother. an amazing aunt, amazing daughter, and amazing sister. i need her in my life and i cant fathom that she is gone forever. i know she is in our hearts and i feel her here, but i just want to c her. i called the house the other day when my mom was over, she didnt pick up in time and i heard my aunts voice on the voicemail and i burst out crying and hung up. its only been about 2 weeeks, but its seems forever. death is cruel, cancer is vicious and i am helpless. i hope we actually go to london May 24 b/c i think i need some time with my girlz to party and feel good about myself. i just feel guilty, i question everything everyday, and nothing seems important to me anymore except my health. i love you sooo much Auntie Gail, i miss u like crazzy, fri nite dinner was soo hard without u and i tried to stop the tears, forever you will be with us, but life is not fair...
i love u Auntie Gail and may you rest in peace: 04/20/06

Current mood: depressed

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

11:40PM

So this entry is in point form tonight:
- okay so i ran a stop sign today lol...and i didnt even notice until lorin pointed it out. i just drove right through it as if it wasnt even there! ooppss....
- work was too loong i worked till 10 instead of 8 so now im doing my assignment tom. but on the bright side i had my dad's yummy pizza for dinner, yes steph and michy the Baruch can cook, and mighty well i might add haha. now BACK OFF!!!!
- loblaws is having their 12 cent deal for printing pics, and i printed 73 lol and it's only $10 with tax..now thats what i call a deal. i printed pics from the rose & firkin, st. pattys day, jordie's 20th and other randomness
- greg and bert are supposed to be comin up on Sat nite to see their friend's show. i hope they actually come, i havent seen them in 2 months..too loong! but knowing them ill know last minute. jordie i hope u know u are coming with me no matter what. steph i wish u could be there!! but we will b making lots of roadtrips there in the summer no worries!
- kevin lillico came into my work and of course he hasnt changed lol..grabbing my bum and commenting on my "rack" haha..oo hes stuck in gr.10
- school is almost over. fuck ya! cant wait!!! one more essay then damn exams! but the job hunt is on!
- girls vacation soo cloose i can taste it haha..and im geting a gym membership to get fit haha, wow me in a bikini now...not happening!!!
- steph i wanna come to the Bay for ur bday and im working on it!
- griner has this girl in one of his classes that looves him, he kind of went out with her and im ok with it, im actually encouraging him to go and check out the market...i just thought i wouldnt b ok with it..i mean i have feelings for him and i always will, but im glad that i want him to explore his options is this normal??
- im meeting greg sitzer for lunch on thurs, i havent seen him in months, i feel bad! but its ok we will make up for it. and i bought him this sick G-Unit sweatshirt that i hope he loves.
- the green machine is back up and running beautifully (knock on wood) so highway practice here i come, except i still owe my dad $$$$$ damn cars y ru so expensive!
-o and i bought a closet organizer thing for my billions of clothes, it only holds t-shirts but it works so well..now i have more closet space, it was $3.99!! so i think im goin to buy another one!
- did a little spring cleaning and boy did my dusty room need it
- i love facebook! if i havent mentioned that enough. i just like that i can re-connect with ppl and friends i havent spoken to in awhile..its nuts but im officially addicted!! and now u should all get it
thats all for now..
love u all and miss u more!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everyone come home! and steph i think that you should think long and hard about staying in the bay over the summer, but whatever ur decision i support u! but..they better pay u well, treat u well and let u come home often!!
anywayz, i gotta catch some zzzzzzzzzzzzs
night!!!

Current mood: drained

Current music: So Sick- Ne-Yo

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

6:11PM - Okay, so heres an update!!

Well i did have a good St. Pattys Day thats one positive thing that has happened recently. We went to the Pour House and i got drunk hahah it was fun..i wore greeeen and took lots of crazzy pics and they r up on my website/facebook! Everyone was plastered and the place was packed!!! But it was nice chill bar but lacking in the male department, except this one guy tried to pick me up with the eyebrow raise it was quite hilarious and obviously ignored haha. but the bathrooms were soo small and by the end of the night i had to pee soo badly and then there was bloody puke in the sink it was gross!! it was also freezing that night, and we went to some 24 hr diner which was cool and i got picked up at the door by 2 cute boys. we took the vomet comet home and i fell onto this guys foot on the bus and i bet it hurt him lots bc of my hell hahaha..and gary puked like 3 inches away from me repeatedly. hahha but the best part was our cabby, he was an old, short israeli guy who was pumping old school tunes like britney spears and old fat shoe and he was singing and dancing. its was fucken hilarious...except we were all so drunk we had no idea what was going on lol...good times!!
I must confess that i am getting a little addicted to facebook, but on the positive end it is a good way to find old friends and talk to them! Work is ok, we are now officially addicted to mini eggs..mm i love easter! and our new manager rihanna is ok, shes nice but i mean she is a little ditsy and says like wayyy to much! but shes ok for now. im in desperate search of a summer job and no luck yet. but my car has cost me $800 in repairs this week bc its been making a horrible sound and turns out the wheel bearing was falling off and something else was wrong. then on top of that the battery died last nite and my dad had to come and get me from work and i got a boost, so then today he bought a new battery another $100 down the drain! but now my car is running as smooth as ever and im goin to practice highway driving bc im confident my car wont explode now lol! i also saw Dave @ AE last nite, he worked with me at the magic show company last summer, he still works there and was tryin to convince me to come back..NOT HAPPENING! school is almost done and i couldnt b happier! beach here i come, and that needs to be planned asap girls! exams are also approaching, my first one is on the 9th and then i have a 2 week break and then one the 26th then 28th..yuck!! but i think im going to london the weekend after my first exam for some release. i also decided im joining the gym for the month of april bc i need to do something if im goin to b in a bathing suit in like a month and a bit!
The London boys are supposed to come to toronto for their friend's show next weekend and i hope they actually come, i havent seen them in, itll b 2 months next weekend..and im in need of some pre-exam partying and hopefully steph will b in to accompany me. i have my last natural science tutorial tom and my last sociological theory! i am sooo excited i hate those tutorials hahha...its Myles' bday on fri and the guys r going to this place called the Dance Cave, but im not sure if il b joining them..i have one more essay due on the 5th and then im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
In other news my aunt is doing horribly..so for everyone who reads this keep it on the d-low please. anyways now the cancer has moved into her brain and is now putting pressure on her eyes so is having blurred vision. i saw her for the first time on fri and i almost burst out crying, she has a walker bc she cant walk alone bc of her hip, she has virtually no hair and was very quiet..i was really depressed after seeing her. it was also my moms bday and i bought her a purple hooded Roots sweatshirt and a new white t-shirt and she really liked it. i also enlarged 2 pics for her from my parents anniversary party, and one is a pic of my mom, my zaidy and my aunt and omg when i look at my aunt its horrible, just 2 months ago she looked amazing not sick at all and now..a different person. im having a really hard time dealing with this, the reality is unfortunately setting in and ive had a few breakdowns lately so sorry if im distant and not being myself this is just really hard for me.
but ya on a brighter note top model is on tonight and im excited!!!!!!!!!!

Current mood: blah

Current music: Angels Losing Sleep- Our Lady Peace

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Sunday, March 5, 2006

3:54PM - What is wrong with me?

Okay, so I was at work today and everyone was talking about their plans for next year. Some are going off to university for the first time, others r moving, going back to school..and im standing there thinking..hmm im doing nothing different at all. the whole car ride home this was all i could think about. i came to the conclusion that my life is a routine, i do the same exact thing every single week and i hate it. i do to stupid york which i hate, go to my low paying and uneventful retail job, sleep, do the occassional homework and be bored, the only thing i look forward to is my friday nights with jordie and will which is the most excitement of the week. i hate it. i came home i just burst out crying, i guesss i had this all bottled up inside and it felt great to get it out. i guess part of my frustration was coming from the fact that i dont know how to drive on the highway! i mean its such a beautiful day here and i wish i could just take a leisurely drive somewhere. not even that, but i mean just drive to go see my friends in North Bay, London and maybe in Halifax hehe. its so frustrating, so i am goin to practice. i feel this negative and depressive energy in my house, my dad is stressed bc my grandmother in israel who had a stroke now has numonia, or however u spell it, my aunt is doing horrible, my brother is sick, and everyone is stressed. i keep it all in and be positive but everything just hit me like a ton of bricks today and it feels awful. life is so complicated, boys are complicated and i cant handle having like 5 of them to deal with! but this week has been pretty good, michy was home and now steph is home and its great having my friends back with me, i miss u guys soo much. im just dreading the rest of the school, my exams end the 28th soooooooooo late! im pissed! but on the bright side we are in the midst of planning our May vacation and that is something amazing to look forward to! i really need to go to London soon though, i wanted to go for St. Pattys Day weekend, but it's my mom/aunt's bday. bearing in mind this might be their last birthday together i NEED to be home. but maybe ill go the following weekend. i need to go before exams or i think i might actually explode. Well...at least steph is home now for awhile and im happy, hopefully this mood will disappear...

But this Nine Inch Nails Song describes exactly how i am feeling right now, every word, its crazzy but its so true...

"Every Day Is Exactly The Same"

I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around

Oh, no

[Chorus:]
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end


I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday you might find
Well I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind
I'm still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could have been any other way
But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do

Current mood: crappy

Current music: Everyday Is Exactly The Same- Nine Inch Nails

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Wednesday, February 1, 2006

10:28AM - Life/Death....

So besides the crazzy week i had last week with homework and stupid group projects, lots of shit has been going on. In brief, my aunt is doing really really bad. my dad has been in israel and is coming home on Sunday, but everything is just crazy. everyone is stressed, im stressed. i dont know how to deal with everything. how much time? what to do. how to cope. this is new to me. im scared. i cry all the time but not in front of my mom of course, but to myself. i can handle it. i have no other choice. it's hard. but i have amazing friends who i know will b there when i need them. i will be strong. i can get throgh this. but how much time does she have left? will things improve. will they happen too quickly that i can't absorb it. only time will tell. but i hope this crisis does not happen quicker than expected. my family is strong and can get through it. but the thought of funerals, hospitals, and court are not pleasant.
please give her more time!

Current mood: depressed

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Thursday, January 26, 2006

5:11PM - its the 28th day :(

I love anaprox..whose with me?
drugs are the answer when ur in indescribable amounts of pain
thats the only time i will condone their use

Current mood: on prescription meds :)

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Monday, January 23, 2006

10:36AM - Happy Birthday Jordie!!!!

Well it's Jordie's birthday today, and wow she is 20. That's the second friend that has turned 20 this year, ahhhhhhhh we are getting old. I feel so young though, still in my teens, little old me. But anyways it is still exciting, a new step for all of us. I am so excited for this weekend because we are partying @ Picadilly's on Saturday to celebrate Jordie's bday and Steph is coming in for the weekend with one of her roomies Bailey to see the Bon Jovi concert, so this weekend is sure to be a blast!!!
This and last week has been crazzy with work. Last Sunday after my parents 25th Anniversary party which was actually really nice. Lots of people came, they ate, i drank and it was enjoyable. I helped mom prepare and she ultimately got a waitress which really helped. My parents got such nice gifts from their friends, i took a lot of pics which i posted on my website for all of you to see and everyone was drunk. But that night i only got to bed @ 2 am and then i had to wake up 2 hours later to go into work and do inventory. It wasn't too bad because we did lots of prepping for it and we were done by about 11:30, and then i came home and passed out. Later that afternoon Chris (keyholder) called me and asked me if i wanted to work because he had no one else, and im like no way im tired, he sounded pissed but fuck him i had 2 hours of sleep! This Saturday night i had yet another floorset and it was actualy the best floorset ive had in a long time, i was back in bed at 7 am and the store looked awesome. I did so much and most people didn't slack off like they usually do. i really wasn't that tired because i only got out of bed at 4 in the afternoon haha!
I got my other sociology exam back, the written take-home one that i definately thought i failed because i did it the night before, but i got a 77..not bad! but my t.a. for that class changed, so now i have some brown dude whom i can't understand a word that comes out of his mouth! which sux. and instead of writing our weekly questions, we have to do a presentation, just one for the whole semester. so mine is next monday, it's really informal like 5 mins but i decided to do it early and get it over with!
I also voted last week at the early poles, and you all better exercise your right, and VOTE!
My dad left for israel on friday for 2 weeks, im going to miss him and i know it's going to be super hard on my mom without him here. On friday before his flight we went to the Beeftheque, the one right near the airport. It was a really nice dinner and the food was soo yummy! Then we dropped Dad at the airport, and i almost started to cry when he left. i mean i guess im just nervous when people fly and also because there was a recent bombing in tel-aviv. The bad thing is that when my dad goes to israel it means that my grandmother isn't doing too well.
After the airport me, jordie and will went to jordie's friend Tasha's 20th bday party at her apartment like right downtown. we made it there thanks to will's directions lol. it was funny because tasha was so drunk and we were just laughing the whole time. her apartment was cute and we stayed for about an hour or so, and then jordie wanted to leave. then we went back to will's house. it was my first time there and he has such a cute house and room. jordie and i chilled there for about 45 mins and then we went to griner's house because his dad was away and he had people over and drinking. everyone was trashed and watching the Disney sing-along movies, it was hilarious especially Peter. O and Will finally gave me my map, and it is the demographics of the jewish population in toronto and the surrounding area, it is crzzzy how many there are along the bathurst corridor obviously lol! thnx will i love it!
Im also doing this project for my children studies class in which we plan and execute an activity with a neighbouring elementary school and there is this creepy guy, in fact he is the only guy in my group. he is tall, blonde greasy hair, and he looks like a jack rabbit lol. he has buck teeth and is soo ugly, im sorry but he honestly looks like a pedifial (however u spell it) and he tries to control and lead our group. but me and this other girl don't let him, i hate him and i have to see him today because our group is meeting. i honestly would not want him with my kids!
In other news, my aunt is really not doing well. she now hs cancerous cells in her liver! and that can only mean trouble. she was over for dinner last night and she looked well horrible, she actually looked sick. i mean i know she is sick but usually its not so obvious physically, but it was last night. she was moody and was snapping on everyone, which i know isnt her fault. my mom said that she and my aunt were talking about where my aunt wants to die, like if she will be at home or the hospital. and also the future for kids and stuff. i know my aunt is sick, i know she wont live forever, but i dont want to start thinking how much time she has left or where her kids are going to live and her burial arrangements, its too much and i cant handle it! but i have to be strong for my mom, she is a trooper and is there for everyone so i am there for her to cry on.
okay, switch of topics before i start crying more. My friend carly at work is selling burberry and gucci purses and im getting the nicest ones on tues. the burberry one is pink not biege strips and it a square shaped one that has 2 handles and you hold, omg im in love! she also sells authentic juicy clothing because her friend's dad works for Juicy so she has the hook ups. she is selling me a sweapant set for $80!!!! and retail its $130 per piece! im so excited. Abercrombie and Hollister opened in Sherway, and Hollister opened at the Eaton Centre and i definately plan on visiting shortly.
Anyways, i have to go get ready for school and take the bus because my dad isn't home. Tonight i am going to my mom's friends house for dinner who just moved into an apparently magnificent house with an elevator!!! uggh i feel like im getting my period, this time id better as fuck get it before i go to london next fri, yay..anyways i cant wait for this weekend it will be awesome....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDIE!!!
XOXO

Current mood: blah

Current music: This Song is for the loveless- Juliana Theory

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

12:12PM - and school for yet another day

I honestly hate this four hour break i have on wednesdays and i cant believe i did it all last semester! it's just too damn long, and although i have my laptop, which is heavy to carry around, i still sometimes remain so unproductive. I have work tonight, i had work last night, and tomorrow so i need to do my work but yet i chose to write in my lj instead. I had that work dinner thing last Sunday night and it went surprisingly well. it was short and sweet. i showed my face, ate some food and that was it. Last night work wasn't so bad, except that i came in early because Chris asked me to and had to stay till 10:15 to do markdowns. Usually i wouldn't have a problem with staying, but id like some advanced notice because i did have an assignment due today. But work was dead bc the holiday rush is over thank god. Nikki said that we will be getting less hours, which is good bc i definately worked way too much last semester, which is hard to handle with school. i gave her my new availability which is
Sunday: Open-Close
Monday: 5:15-10
Tuesday: 3:30-8:30
Wed: Off
Thurs: Off
Fri- Open-Close
Sat: Off
I think that's a great schedule. so days i have early class i either don't work or don't close. And i got some bad news from Nikki last night also. I was planning on going up to Western next weekend, which is the 20th i believe. But nikki informed me that we have a floorset and she really needs to me to do it bc i am so amazing at them lol..i was pissed off!! mike had told me that the spring 1 floorset would be the last weekend in January the 28th, which would've been perfect bc id b in town for jordie's bday. but now its a week earlier and this sucks. i wanted to go up that weekend bc obviously i want to see all my western friends and its early in the year so they wouldn't have lots of work yet, and of course the boys who i miss soo much!! but now that is ruined. nikki suggested that i could go up from thurs night to sat late afternoon. but that seems rushed, ill have to figure it out. if not, then i think ill go up the first weekend in february which is only about 2 weeks away, but i need a vacation NOW. Also, Lorin and I are planning on going to some tropical destination for reading week. Anyone want to join?? The more the merrier. Our reading week is the 13-17 of february, let me know. im going alone if i have to!
I finished my ethnography of the Shoreham public school, for the observation i did on those children. i did some yesterday before work and finished late last night. it's 9 pages!! but the maximum was 10 so it's all good :) i think it came out well, and it's only worth 5% so its ok. I got my children studies exam back today and i got an 84!! majority of the class got Cs and Ds so im happy! I also got a 93 on my sociological theory exam which i think i already mentioned before. On my Natural Science exam that i studied a whole semester of material in one night for i got a 70 which is decent so my mark is a B in that class, and my psych exam i got 71 which i had hoped for better on, but i think ill end up with a B in that class, so im content!
I also picked up my pictures i printed and it was $6 for 49 pics...thnx Loblaws and your buy one get one free offer! i printed new years pics, pics from Club Havana, the december london weekend, and other london visits...they all came out soo pretty!
My parents anniversary party is quickly approaching and i have nothing to wear..any suggestions? i have my booze so im all set in that department. Lorin's dad is also going away for a week on Saturday to Cuba so i think ill crash there Saturday night.
It was my dog Blaze's 7th bday yesterday!! i cant believe he is 49, old man! he was cute, and i just kept wishing him happy bday, and we even sang to him, we gave him lots of treats and bones!! i love him!!!
Thornhill is so lonely without all my girls!! but u all better come home soon...miss u...
I will definately post a huge detailed account of my parents party on Saturday...

Current mood: tired

Current music: None (Stupid Library)

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Sunday, January 8, 2006

1:08PM - And the Break has come to an end...

Well I knew this time was coming but i was unsure of way i would handle all my best friends leaving again. Steph was just over to say goodbye to my parents and pick up her stuff and once i closed the door i started crying. I can't believe it, it's so hard having everyone home for 2 weeks, feels just like the good ol days when we were all together. And now i have to go to a school i hate, work all the time, live at home and have only one girlfriend left (thnx Jordie)and a whole bunch of boys. This is going to be hard. So many amazing memories made this break!
Just to name a few:
London: enough said! alcohol, michy's house, spageddy eddys, jamspot, marit, salt lounge....
Club Havana: 3 girls and one guy, fun stuff with a male stripper, happy 20th michy lol, free coronitas! brazilian boys, and a free ride all the way home!
New Years: amazing time at my house, lots of champagne, secret santa, crashing a private party of 40 yr olds lol..adventures
Golden Griddle: how i love thee, mm pancakes, dry rye toast, bacon haha..and of course tap water
East Side Marios: sexxy ass waiter, how many tongue rings did he have???
St. Louis: Loots of fries and wings, our hangout when Jordie came back
Christmas: Me, Michy and Tam drinking that licorice stuff (i dont remember what its called) and getting trashed in her bedroom and eating Entemans chocolate chip cookies and me finishing all the fuzzy peaches!
Michy's House: hair braiding, massaging, eggplant dip, champagne and the food network!! omg that was crazy that we saw a restaurant they featured on the restaurant makeover show called the Town Grill, and we saw it last night!!
Tickled Toad: Gary eating the ranch dip, ewwww...beers and cheap wings a popular hangout
Phoenix: We finally went- lots of rum, creepy boys, the return of the crazy dancing Asian man that steph and i found when the london boys were down. We took Will's clubbing virginity!! Griner was smashed and dancing and awesome music!! Golden Griddle again along with a chicken bone in lorin's sandwich and a shell in michy's egg, a table of loud gay men and a cross dresser. A cab driver that thought we wanted to go to Thorncliffe and not Thornhill, so we went the total opposite way and then took the blue line.
I had an amazing break and great pics on top of all that, so check out my website. I started school last wednesday and it was a waste of time bc no one was there and all my classes were cut short. I got 93 on my sociological theory exam and i was soo happy. this is the class where i bombed that essay bc i helped that other girl, and the funny thing is that she got a 54 on the exam, well now we really know who knows their stuff!
My parents are having a 25th anniversary party at the house on Saturday so that'll be interesting, i plan on being drunk. And the worst part of everything is that my sister left for about a week to her boyfriend's house and didn't call or anything. my parents were mad and said they wouldn't take her back to london. so i come home yesterday and my mom tells me that they gave her the car to drive back to london and that she is coming back on thursday for the party!!! how the hell is that fair?? i have work, school and honestly she treats them like shit and then they hand her everyhing she wants on a silver platter. and then they wonder y she treats our house like a motel? they are so dumb and its not fair. i yelled at my parents and im not talking to them. so this week i have to be a 12 yr old and have my parents drive me around! so how is it fair? i am sooo mad, so basically if i dont call my parents, leave for a week, swear at them, disrespect them and treat the house like a hotel, then i will get a car and everythin else i want. wow, ever heard of discipline. and the funny thing is that now she knows she can get away with it and still get the car so now she will never change. what a bitch! parents are fucked up, i guess now im just goin to do whatever i want...i hate this bullshit!

In other news, Mike, my manager at work who is sexy, but does nothing and whom most people hate is leaving. he is in the process of getting his real estate license and got a job at Green Park homes. he starts on monday, and i guess nikki will be taking over until they can find a replacement. i mean i know he wasnt the best manager, but this is the worst time for me to be getting a new manager. im in school, and i dont have patience to work and put forth 100% all the time in order to prove my ability and skill to this new manager, but i have to, so they can know where i stand as an employee and to ensure my hours. This sucks. i have a work dinner tonite and it should be interesting and fun except i have to have my mommy drive me there, which is not only embarassing and unnecessary, but then i cant leave when i want!! uggh this is going to be the worst week of my life!

Tammy's bday is on Saturday and Jordie's on the 23rd, wow ur turning 20! we r old, but ill still be in my teens for the next while! and my dog is turning 7 on tuesday!! i also did lots of shopping over the break, no surprise there so im low on cash haha.

well i think thats all for now, i miss u all already and i know ill see u soon, great break and u all better study hard!!
xoxoxo

Current mood: crushed

Current music: Follow Through- Gavin DeGraw

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

4:24PM - EXAMSSSSSSSSSSS

Well first of all im going to start this entry by saying that last weekend was AMAZING!!! The London boys came in and soo many things happened i dont think i could list them all. Steph and i had a wicked time, we chilled with lead singers of 311 and Alien Ant Farm. We chilled at the Phoenix and it really wasnt so bad on a fri night, except for some creepy guys lol..but greg was plastered and was dancing so that was hilarious. At the hotel we had like 20 people in the hotel room and we almost got kicked out lol, such high school drama but it was fucken ridiculous lol. Of course we didn't get any sleep and in the morning Steph and i went to the Eaton Centre so she could get pants and a belt for Christmas party and i felt like such a whore lol bc we were both walking in our heels, makeup and nice clothes from the previous night and it was obvious that we were out partying all night and people kept staring at us lol...but it was awesome. My mom didn't even ask where i was goin, i just told her i was sleeping out and left her steph's cell #. So ya it was really nice considering i had 2 exams earlier in the week that went really well.
Today i had my social psych exam and it was goood i studied soooooooooooo much for that exam and it's finally over. It was worth 40% of my mark so im really nervous!! I have my sociology take home exam and my natural science test on tues, so after then i am free and done exams yay!! so excited...but that means lots of work. i went into work the other day and everyone was like where have u been? it was so nice to see them all again, but i hope i actually get lots of shifts after tues bc ive been spending $$ like crazzy and need to earn some.
In other news i applied to be a secret shopper for this credible company that does secret shopping for Mark's Workwearhouse, and i got the job. now i just have to do online training and PASS then i can work. its a great extra job bc i just apply to jobs at my convenience, so i basically work whenver i want. I get paid to shop, that is obviously my ideal job. and the best part is that i also get reimbursed for the clothes i buy and the food i eat!! HEAVEN....
My bubby is doing a lot better now. Last week she was doing really bad and her blood pressure was really high but now she is out of ICU and coronary and on a regular floor so hopefully by next week she will be in rehab. i went to see her and it was nice, she didn't look too bad and she really appreciated us being there. She was on so much morphine the other day that she was in complete withdrawl and it was really funny, my mom said she was hullucinating and thought there was a little boy in her hospital room. But im glad she is doing better, my mom is there all the time so i guess its good bc her and i get a break from each other. My grandfather just looks so upset and depressed without my bubby, wow thats true love and like 50 yrs of marriage. O and its my parents 25th Wedding Anniversary next week, so i need to get them a present any suggestions?? O and my aunt is apparently doing really badly..she hardly leaves her bed. O and yesterday while my zaidy was at the hospital i went to his aprtment and studied psych for like 4 hrs, it was so nice and quiet and i was so productive bc no one was yelling at me or breathing down my throat..independence is gold. I also am working on doing social psychological research with my social psych Prof next semester, yay..excitement, bc i love that class!!!
Im excited for christmas break although im not goin on vacation but my gurlz will be home and we will party..tam tam is home but i cant c her until my exams r done..but im soo excited!!
And on Friday London here i come..and then im there till tuesday until my sis is done exams...more partying!!! I'm excited to see michy, tim, gill, and all my boys and steph..hopefully we can re-live the summer! I'm also going to see my roomie from last year Michelle, whom i havent seen in months!!!yay........i feel like im forgetting to write something, well if i do ill add to it later..
~~~~~CHECK OUT MY PICTURE WEBSITE FOR SOME PICS FROM PHOENIX AND OTHER FUN NIGHTS :p~~~~~~~~~if u need the url let me know...
i love the post-exam feeling..makes me soo lazzy but hyper and happy but not wanting to study for my other exams....i guess i'll just listen to Down by 311 ive been listening to this song all week instead of studying...

Current mood: chipper

Current music: Down- 311

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Monday, November 28, 2005

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